Wanting Is Not the Same as Ego

Taurus 12 - A young couple standing before a glowing shop window, gazing at displayed goods with wonder

Taurus 12° (11° to 12°)

Sabian Symbol: A young couple window-shopping
Symbol wording: Dane Rudhyar, An Astrological Mandala (1973)

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The Essence

  1. Against the inward focus of self-nurture, we also look outward at what society and culture offer.
  2. Shopping around, and expressing ourselves through what draws us, gives substance to a developing sense of self.
  3. Wanting something is a real part of being alive, and we lose something important if we wave it away in the name of contentment.
  4. Some wants are borrowed from vanity, yet with a little attention we can usually feel which ones come from somewhere deeper.
  5. Rather than practicing self-denial, it is more useful to imagine and present new personal possibility.
  6. It helps to check whether what we want and what we do point the same way. When they diverge, things stall or fail.
  7. When we can finally see what is possible, the next step has to be taken, and only some of us take it.
  8. Visualizing a detailed outcome with confidence works almost like a tool for shaping the future.
  9. Our first image of what we want is usually imperfect, and has to evolve as we learn from feedback.
  10. Failure often serves us more than success, once we treat it as information rather than defeat.

The Image

Two young people walk arm in arm along a shopping street after dark. They are not buying anything tonight. They stop at a window full of sofas, then at one with winter coats, then at a bookshop, and at each one they point and talk and laugh, sketching between them a flat they do not yet have and a life they have not yet built. In the glass, if you look closely, their own reflection hangs over the goods on display.

That reflection is the heart of the scene. A shop window works because you see yourself inside it. The coat is not only a coat; it is you in the coat, walking into a room where people turn to look. The couple are trying on futures, and the window lets them do it for free, without commitment, with the street lamps for company.

Notice that they are two. Desire here is not private brooding but a conversation, and the couple learns a great deal about each other from what each of them stops for. One lingers at the kitchen shop, the other at the travel agent. One wants a dog, the other a balcony. We find out who someone is partly by watching what they want, and we find out who we are in the same way.

Notice, too, that they are young. Their sense of self is still forming, and their wants are part of how it forms. You will probably remember a version of this from your own twenties: the poster you bought for your first room, the second-hand chair you could barely afford, the shirt you thought would make you a different kind of person. Some of those choices were silly. All of them were attempts to give your inner life an outer shape.

The image can be read as a warning about consumerism, and that reading has its place. But the degree is more interested in what the window shows than in what it sells. Before we can build anything, we need to picture it. Window-shopping is one of the oldest rehearsals we have for that act of imagination, and you have probably done it more often than you would care to admit.

Jones gave this degree the keyword visualization, the capacity to see a possibility clearly enough that it starts to organise our choices. A vague wish leaves us standing on the pavement. A clear image tells us which door to open first.

This is stage two of the ninth five-fold sequence and phase 42 of the cycle. Where the first stage of this sequence turned inward to tend what we already have, the second stage looks outward, at the world of things and possibilities that lies beyond the garden fence.


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The Archetype

The archetype here is the one who imagines forward. Every culture has a version of this figure: the young couple planning a home, the apprentice studying the master's finished work, the immigrant who pictures the shop she will open in a city she has not yet seen. What defines them is not what they have but what they can see.

This archetype stands against two common mistakes. The first is to treat all wanting as suspect, as if a mature person should have moved beyond desire altogether. That stance can look like wisdom, but it often hides fear, or a habit of making ourselves small so that nobody can accuse us of reaching too high. The second mistake is to take every want at face value, as if whatever catches our eye in the window must be what our soul is asking for.

Between these two lies a more useful skill: learning to tell apart the wants that come from vanity or comparison from the ones that carry something real about who we are becoming. Most of us can feel the difference if we slow down. A borrowed want tends to be urgent and restless, and it fades soon after we get it. A deeper want tends to be patient and to keep returning, sometimes over years.

The archetype also carries the step from picture to action. The couple at the window are dreaming, and dreaming is the start. But the image does not tell us whether they go home and open a savings account, or whether they come back every Saturday for ten years and never buy the sofa. That gap between seeing and doing is where this degree does its most important work, and it is where you will find its lessons in your own life.

If you carry this archetype strongly, you may notice that you are good at the first half of the act and slower at the second. You can describe the house, the career or the relationship in loving detail. The question this degree keeps putting to you is what you will do on Monday morning to bring that picture one step closer, and whether your daily habits point toward it or quietly away from it.


The Taoist Current

Chapter 12 of the Dao De Jing reads almost like a commentary on a shopping street. The five colours blind the eye, it says, the five tones deafen the ear, the five flavours dull the palate, and goods that are hard to obtain lead people astray. The sage, therefore, attends to the belly and not the eye. The point is not that colour or music are bad, but that a life run by stimulation loses its centre.

Chapter 44 asks a set of plain questions. Which is dearer, your name or your person? Which is worth more, your person or your goods? It then observes that excessive attachment brings great cost, and that knowing when you have enough keeps you from disgrace, while knowing when to stop keeps you from danger.

Chapter 46 makes the same point at the scale of a whole society. When the world follows the Way, horses are used to work the fields; when it does not, warhorses are bred on the border. There is no greater misfortune than not knowing contentment, it says, and no greater fault than the wish to acquire.

Set beside the young couple, these chapters do not forbid wanting. They ask what the wanting is for. The image in the window can feed your life or empty it, and the Taoist test is simple: does this desire bring you closer to your own centre, or pull you further from it? A visualization that serves the belly, in the Taoist sense, is one that nourishes a real life instead of decorating a hollow one.


The Yi Jing Resonance

Hexagram 31, Xian (Influence, Wooing) shows a lake above a mountain, and it is traditionally associated with courtship and mutual attraction between a young man and a young woman. The mountain is still and the lake is open, and the influence between them works because each makes room for the other. The Image advises receiving others with an open, uncluttered mind, which is what allows real influence to flow.

Hexagram 22, Bi (Grace) shows fire at the foot of a mountain, light falling on its shape. Grace here means beauty of form, adornment, the care we put into appearances. The hexagram treats this with respect but also with limits: grace is suited to small matters and should not be confused with substance. Its final line points toward plain, unadorned grace as the highest form.

Together, these two hexagrams frame the couple at the window. Xian describes the attraction between them, and also the attraction between them and the things they see: a pull that can lead to something real if it is met with openness. Bi describes the window itself, the polished display, the lovely surface of possibility. The lesson is to enjoy the surface while remembering that a life is built from what lies beneath it.


The Philosophical Content

Jacques Lacan gives this image its sharpest edge. In his paper on the mirror stage, first presented in 1936 and revised in 1949, he described the moment when a small child, somewhere between six and eighteen months old, recognises itself in a mirror and is delighted. The delight comes from a promise. The body the child lives in still feels clumsy and scattered, but the reflection looks whole, upright and in control. The child identifies with that picture, and in Lacan's account the sense of "I" begins there, in an image outside ourselves that we take to be who we are.

Lacan treated this as a lasting structure, not a passing phase. We keep reaching for reflections that seem more complete than we feel, and we keep mistaking them for ourselves. He added a second idea that matters just as much here: our desire is always tangled up with the desire of others. We want what we believe others want, and we want to be wanted by them.

Now look at the couple in front of the shop window. The glass shows them two things at once: the objects on display, and their own faces laid over those objects. They are not only choosing a sofa. They are trying on a version of themselves, the couple who would live with that sofa, and that version is partly built from what other people seem to value. Lacan would not tell them to stop looking. He would ask them to notice that part of what they are falling for is a reflection.

Gabriele Oettingen, a psychologist working in New York and Hamburg, approaches the same window from the practical side. Across many studies she found that pleasant fantasies about a desired future, on their own, tend to lower the energy people put into reaching it. The mind tastes the reward in advance and relaxes. Her alternative, which she calls mental contrasting, is simple: picture the outcome you want, then picture, just as vividly, the main obstacle inside you or around you that stands in the way. She later turned this into a short exercise known as WOOP: wish, outcome, obstacle, plan.

That is exactly the step this degree invites. Picturing the finished flat with its new sofa is the wish and the outcome. Picturing the budget, the Saturday spent comparing prices, the compromise between two tastes and the habit that keeps eating the savings is the obstacle, and from there a plan becomes possible.

Put the two side by side and we get a clear instruction. Lacan asks you to check where the picture in the glass came from and how much of it is someone else's wanting. Oettingen asks you to check what the picture leaves out. A wish that is your own, and that has already met its obstacles in your imagination, is one that can carry you across the threshold of the shop.


The Evolutionary Astrology Lens

In evolutionary astrology, a planet at this degree points to a soul learning to work openly with desire: neither suppressing it nor being driven by it, but using it as a source of direction.

Pluto shows the history behind this lesson. With this degree emphasised, Pluto often reveals a past relationship with wanting that went wrong in one of two ways. Some souls learned that wanting was dangerous or shameful, perhaps because their desires were mocked, punished or never met, and so they now dismiss what they long for as beyond their reach. Others were shaped by an environment where wanting was everything, where worth was measured in possessions, and so they now chase images that never satisfy.

The South Node describes the old pattern. It can look like self-denial dressed up as maturity, a habit of saying "I don't need that" before anyone has asked. It can also look like restless acquisition, where each new object or goal fades as soon as it is reached and the next window beckons. In both cases we never learn what we would want if we were free to choose.

The North Node points toward a clearer relationship with desire. That means taking our wants seriously enough to examine them, sorting the borrowed from the true, and then acting on the ones that matter. Pluto's polarity point echoes this, asking us to move from compulsive or forbidden wanting toward desire that has been looked at, chosen and owned.

When this work bears fruit, wanting becomes a compass instead of a hunger. You know what you are walking toward, and why, and you are willing to take the first step. You also become harder to sell to, because a person who knows what they want is far less moved by what the window tells them they should want.


The Buddhist Dimension

Taṇhā is the Pali word often translated as craving or thirst. In the Buddha's teaching on the four noble truths, taṇhā is named as the origin of suffering: the restless reaching for pleasure, for becoming, or for escape from what we dislike. Taṇhā is the part of us that stands at the window convinced that the next purchase will finally make us whole, and is disappointed every time it does not.

Chanda is a different kind of desire, and the distinction is one of the most useful in Buddhist psychology. Chanda is the wish to act, the intention to do something wholesome, and it appears among the qualities that support practice and progress on the path. Without chanda, nobody would sit down to meditate, learn a skill or care for another person. Buddhist teachers often point out that the goal is not the end of all desire, but the transformation of craving into this kind of clear, directed intention.

The young couple at the window contain both. Part of their looking is taṇhā, a hungry scanning for the next thing that might fill an inner gap. Part of it is chanda, a healthy wish to build a shared life and a willingness to work for it. The practice this degree offers is to learn the feel of each, so that we can let the first pass and give our energy to the second. You can begin that practice the next time you feel the tug of a window, simply by pausing long enough to ask which of the two is speaking.


The Soul's Work

The practice for this degree is to look clearly at what you want, and then decide what to do about it.

Begin with a list of five things you have wanted for some time. They might be objects, places, relationships, skills, or changes in how you live. Write each one down, and beside it, write a sentence about where the want came from. Did you see someone else with it? Did it arrive from inside you, unprompted? Is it still alive after months, or does it flare and fade? You are not judging the wants, only tracing their roots.

Then choose one that feels like it belongs to you. Spend ten minutes picturing it in detail, not only the finished result but the steps on the way there: the first conversation, the money, the time, the setbacks you can already foresee. This kind of visualization is less glamorous than a daydream, but it is the kind that prepares you to act.

Finally, take one concrete step within the next week. Make the phone call. Open the savings account. Book the trial lesson. The step does not need to be large, but it needs to be real, because it is what turns an image in the window into something you are building.

If the step goes badly, treat that as feedback. Our first picture of what we want is rarely accurate, and the gap between the image and the reality is where the useful information lives. Adjust the picture, take the next step, and keep walking.

Over months, you may find that the list of five changes. Some wants drop away once you look at them closely, and you will feel lighter for it. One or two grow stronger and clearer, and those are the ones worth your time. That sorting is itself the fruit of this degree: a life furnished with what you have chosen, not with whatever happened to be lit up in the window when you walked past.


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Frequently Asked Questions

What is the Sabian Symbol for Taurus 12°?

The Sabian Symbol for Taurus 12° is A young couple window-shopping, in the wording Dane Rudhyar gave it in An Astrological Mandala (1973). The image itself was channelled by Elsie Wheeler in 1925 and first recorded by Marc Edmund Jones. It is phase 42 of the 360-degree cycle, the second stage of the 9th five-fold sequence. Jones's keyword is visualization.

What does Taurus 12° mean in a natal chart?

A planet at Taurus 12° describes someone who learns about themselves through what they want. These people are often drawn to beauty, design and possibility, and they think in images of the future. The task is to sort borrowed desires from authentic ones, and then to move from picturing to doing. Handled well, this degree gives a strong capacity to imagine a life and then build it.

What is the keyword for Taurus 12°?

The keyword Marc Edmund Jones assigned is VISUALIZATION. At its best, it is the ability to see what is possible for a person or a project and to hold that picture clearly enough to guide action. At its worst, it turns into talking oneself out of every hope, deciding before trying that anything worth having is out of reach.

What is the shadow side of Taurus 12°?

The shadow has two faces. One is endless window-shopping: wanting without acting, picturing a life without ever starting to build it. The other is the opposite: a quiet self-dismissal that treats every real desire as unrealistic or selfish. Both keep the person on the pavement, outside the shop, looking in at a life they have decided is not for them.

How does Lacan's theory of desire and the mirror stage relate to this degree?

Jacques Lacan described a mirror stage in which an infant identifies with its own reflected image, forming a sense of self that is partly a misrecognition. He also held that desire is always caught up with the desire of others. The couple seeing themselves reflected in the shop glass echo this: their wants are tied to an image of who they might become, shaped by what others value.

How does Oettingen's research on mental contrasting apply here?

Gabriele Oettingen found that indulging in positive fantasies alone can reduce the energy people put into reaching their goals. Mental contrasting, picturing a desired future and then the obstacles standing in the way, tends to work better. For this degree, it means the window-shopper should picture both the life they want and what stands between them and it, so that imagination leads to action.

How does Pluto factor into the Evolutionary Astrology Lens at this degree?

Pluto shows the soul's history with desire. With this degree emphasised, it often reveals a past where wanting was either shamed or made into everything. The evolutionary task is to move beyond both extremes toward a relationship with desire that is examined and chosen, using it as a compass to guide real effort instead of a hunger that is never satisfied.

How does the Yi Jing illuminate this degree?

Hexagram 31 describes mutual attraction that works through openness, like the pull between the couple and between them and the possibilities they see. Hexagram 22 describes the beauty of surfaces and reminds us that grace is not substance. Together they suggest enjoying the window and its images while remembering that a life is built from what lies beneath.


This interpretation draws on the 360 symbolic images channelled by Elsie Wheeler in 1925, as recorded and organised by Marc Edmund Jones and later developed by Dane Rudhyar in Astrological Mandala (1973), read here through the lens of depth psychology, Eastern philosophy, and evolutionary astrology.

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